Fionnuala

jesus

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 14:23:01 GMT

havent been on this thing in about 2 years lol. jus remembered about it there. was readin through all my old posts there, jesus fuck have i changed lol. what was the wriing style all about. jesus i used to be a whiney fucker lol. update on my life, i am 20, studyin computer science at queens, part time supervisor in a petrol station and in a long term relationship, id say life is good. actually goin out with ryan, who i was best friends with for 8 years beforehand, so we know like everything about each other. have work at 3-11 2nite but i dont really mind cause even thouh its saturday, i wouldnt be out anyway cause of an exam on monday. i still procrastonate lol, no change there. gunna have to change my photo, i dont look anything like that anymore. i actually am of a sensible weight these days. and i no longer wear hate that cover my face lol. god it feels like i'm brand new to this thing again, don't really know what to write.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 11:00:11 GMT

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my first real update

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 22:15:51 GMT

it has been such a long time since ive given this thing a proper update, its insane. just at the minute i am feeling quite talkative, but that could be the fact that i am slightly drunk. so lets talk about some things
1. big brother - what kind of freakshow is it? i mean jesus crist, pete burns look like hes cut someones cunt off and stuck it to his face
2. exams - who thought them up? they are the root of all evil
3. as is dance music
4. ardoyne nightclubs are shitholes
5. i should never drink
6. boys confuse me
7. eh eh ehhhhhhh
8. does anyone watch tittybangbang? its hilarious lol
9. i love desperate housewives it is amazing, that and sex in teh city
10.i am in love with ryan reynolds, he is pure sex
11.does anyone actually know the way to san hose?
12. or amarillo for that matter
13. how did they think of sex? i mean did the man just go i should put my long thing here in that slimy hole there and see what happens?
well thats all for now, ill think of more lol

ive changed ever so slightly lol

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 20:40:46 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Fionnuala
Birthday:	18/11/87
Birthplace:	Belfast
Current Location:	Glenavy
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5'6
Right Handed or Left Handed:	lefty
Your Heritage:	irish
The Shoes You Wore Today:	k swiss
Your Weakness:	procrastination and boys
Your Fears:	clowns, death, failure
Your Perfect Pizza:	that chilli chicken one u used to be able to get in fortwilliam pizza place
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	pass my a levels and get into uni
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	weeh
Thoughts First Waking Up:	5 more minutes
Your Best Physical Feature:	stomach
Your Bedtime:	whenever
Your Most Missed Memory:	bulgaria
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	burger king
Single or Group Dates:	depends really
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	never tasted
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate in bars, vanilla ice cream and smell
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	nope
Do you Swear:	yean but not much
Do you Sing:	yeah
Do you Shower Daily:	mostly
Have you Been in Love:	yeah
Do you want to go to College:	yeah, jordanstown
Do you want to get Married:	yeah
Do you belive in yourself:	it depends really
Do you get Motion Sickness:	nope
Do you think you are Attractive:	i dont think im brutal, but im not a big fan of me
Are you a Health Freak:	nope
Do you get along with your Parents:	yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yeah its fun when your inside all warm
Do you play an Instrument:	yeah, i play guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yeah
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	not a proper one
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yeah
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	ive never eaten sushi
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	aye lol
Ever been Beaten up:	yeah
Ever Shoplifted:	once years ago
How do you want to Die:	in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	teacher
What country would you most like to Visit:	brazil or america
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	brown
Favourite Hair Color:	brown
Short or Long Hair:	short n spiky
Height:	bout 6 ft
Weight:	im indifferent
Best Clothing Style:	superdry t shirts etc but no pink lol
Number of Drugs I have taken:	marijuana
Number of CDs I own:	too many
Number of Piercings:	4
Number of Tattoos:	2
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	dunk in school, clingy with boyfriends, attracted to assholes, doin t his right now instead of studying for my as levels i have on monday
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 20:28:23 GMT

i am updating this for the first time in months
i have the flu
thats all i can think of

For Steve

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 18:22:39 GMT

1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written

I havent updated this thing in absolutely ages. I don't know why...

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 10:03:10 GMT

Your #1 Love Type: INFP

The Idealist

In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.
For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.

Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.
However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.

Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

What's Your Love Type?

Fri, 27 May 2005 15:04:11 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Tue, 24 May 2005 17:05:56 GMT

my favourite singer at the minute is from ukraine, do i need shot?

Thu, 19 May 2005 21:34:29 GMT

stress, stress, stress
*pulls hair out*

Sun, 15 May 2005 22:22:03 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Fionnuala
Birthday:	18/11/87
Birthplace:	Royal Hospital - Belfast
Current Location:	My House - Belfast
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5'7
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Left Handed
Your Heritage:	Pure Irish Hi
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Dunlop Green Flash
Your Weakness:	love
Your Fears:	clowns, drowning, heights
Your Perfect Pizza:	pure cheese hi
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	to pass all my AS levels and find sum1 to love
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	weeh
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Fuck up stupid homer alarm clock
Your Best Physical Feature:	stomach
Your Bedtime:	whenever im tired
Your Most Missed Memory:	summer 2002...or bulgaria
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mcdonalds burgers but burger kings chips
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	duno
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	yurp
Do you Sing:	very badly
Do you Shower Daily:	most days
Have you Been in Love:	yesh
Do you want to go to College:	QUEENS UNIVERSITY
Do you want to get Married:	yupyupyupyup
Do you belive in yourself:	no
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	no
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	yup
Do you like Thunderstorms:	aye they are fun when ur sittin in the house all warm n cosy
Do you play an Instrument:	guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yep
In the past month have you Smoked:	nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yep
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yup
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no :(
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	i never have
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope
Ever been Drunk:	lmao yup
Ever been called a Tease:	last night actually...
Ever been Beaten up:	yeah
Ever Shoplifted:	once...
How do you want to Die:	peacefully
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a teacher
What country would you most like to Visit:	brazil
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	brown
Favourite Hair Color:	brown
Short or Long Hair:	short n spiky
Height:	bout 6 footish
Weight:	dunno lol
Best Clothing Style:	baggys
Number of Drugs I have taken:	stuff that has been prescribed and ye old blow
Number of CDs I own:	too many
Number of Piercings:	4
Number of Tattoos:	1
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	being to clingy with certain boyfriends
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Fri, 06 May 2005 18:48:42 GMT

the time is comin near. and i have done exactly what i vowed not to. i have wated another year by being lazy and now as the tests approach i am totally unprepared which is shite. i am really ashamed of myself but still i am too lazy to do anything about it :(. i might just get up really early in the morning and go down the library and get a bit of studying done before i have to go to work. i still have a bit of time to get myself up to scratch, my first written exam isnt until the first of june but my irish oral exam is on the 24th of june. i have really gotten myself freaked out about this now and the stress is beginning!
i keep getting really bad headaches and stuff which cant be good, i think is because of stress though. i have a problem though. i cannot stay focused on the one thing, i cant even write a text message, or even get dressed in the mornins without getting distracted, which concerns me very much because it means i cant spend more than 10 minutes on something before giving up, the only time i dont get distracted is if im doin something on the computer. i am worried.
another thing i am doing which i vowed not to is jumping from boy to boy, though this year so far i have only gone through 3 boyfriends which have been joe chris and gary. but i have been jumpin from boy i like to boy i like. i am a mess

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 19:57:26 GMT

i always forget to update this bitch lol. the sun is out and im feelin fine, cept for this little niggling feeling about boys, i depend too much. but the perfect guy is right there and i didnt even notice him, until yesterday. i met him at the gaelteacht. anyways, i still havent lived up to my promise that i would pull the finger out and do some study. as of next week, i will be super study woman!!! i will be smart and i will be practically fluent in irish and i will be of politicians standard at politics(u like my joke?) and i will be at authors standard of english. one can wish :(.

tired

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 19:11:59 GMT

well, i came back from the gaelteacht yesterday, it was fuckin amazing, i wish i had have started going earlier. a whole week of speaking irish probably sounds terrible to the non irish speaker, but it is the best craic you would ever have ever. glad to be home but i miis it too, made loads of new friends. havin trouble speakin constant english now tho lol. anyways, no1 reads this lol. slan

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 19:10:45 GMT

cya in a week yall, steve, have a great bday, i really hope i can make yr party, if i cant i am sooooooooo sorry, but i will try my very very very very best. and ur post steve, in some ways ur right, but like ur friend said u cant judge every1 on the actions of a few. but i hope u feel better dear. david, sorry i am missing unity again, good luck!!. everybody else, cyas in a week!!

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 23:05:25 GMT

twas my last day of big w there, it was actually really good i am really happy for some reason considering my boyfriend just broke up with me lol, ishnt that veird!! going to the gaelteacht on friday cant wait :)

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 12:30:26 GMT

hello everyone, havent been on this in a while, i keep forgettin to update. lifes been treatin me great recently, well part from last night but we will not talk about that. just started goin out with a fellow called chris, he is cool :). st paddys day was eventful lol, alot of drink and a massive brawl lol, how fun :). going to the gaelteacht on friday, i cannot wait woohoo, a whole week of speaking nothing but irish, no english allowed, how fun lol. anyways i cant think of nethin else to write so godspeed :).
fionn xx

Flu

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 20:35:46 GMT

I must say my week this week has been most dull, sunday was my fathers birthday so we went out for dinner before i went to Big W's staff party, however, just before i went out i threw up and took a fever, i did not tell anyone i had a fever and jusy went out anyway, that was a big mistake to make. after having an awful time at the party, going home early and not sleeping at all, i spent from monday until yesterday stuck lying on the sofa, i even had to sleep there as i was unable to even carry myself up to my bed. i have only been able to eat food today,but it is good. if i am better tomorrow i am allowed to go down and get my tattoo extended :)

I am so glad i ditched those "friends"

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 17:29:38 GMT

I was outraged to find out that as i logged onto my faceparty today, someone had rated me with all the negative ratings, slag, fishy, stuff like that. it wasn't half obvious who it was because i know what they are like, i mean, how childish. all i can say is that i waited too long to get out of that trap, that's all i see it as, since my grandmother died and i saw how much they didn't care i have been trying to get out, but felt guilty because they were able to make me feel bad.
I slept last night, mainly because there was no wind to keep me awake. Yesterday was quite busy, didn't stay in the house for long. when i woke up i met Joe and we went down to Big W to see if he was getting his job back and for me to hand in my holiday request. After that we took a trip into town and i bought a few things, mainly a new jacket because i was freezing. we met Junes John and Sinead and we took a walk around before goin up to Joes district. We ran into Ginger John and Angela and proceeded to walk me home. When i got home i could not feel my hands, so i bought gloves today heh. later on i went to a party at Joe's friends house, then went to Joes for a while.
Today i have not been up to much, mainly because its a sunday. I actually find that quite funny what those childish lot have done, i have grown up alot since getting rid of them :)
schol tomorrow though :(. kinda scared, because foolishly i didnt work for the first few months there. i will pass my AS levels, i will

Wind

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 18:56:51 GMT

Anyone who tends to lay to rest after the hours of 12 was bound to hear the screaming and howling of the wind last night, it was wild. As i lay in bed with a bit of music on, all i could hear was the screeching of the wind battering against the telephone lines and the windows of my house, it drowned out the music. I hear that this is set to get worse, and i was surprised when i woke up this afternoon(at 2pm) to find that there was absolutely no damage done by the wind, when, as i looked out the windows last night, i saw trees being blown, i am surprised that they did not fall down or even bend, i saw these very trees today standing as tall and as straight as they always did.
My day today was very lazy, as you know i didn't awake until my mother came home from work at 2, i sat for a while and ate, before heading down to Big W to sort out my holidays, after that i just spent the day playing video games, san andreas yay. After that i went for a bit of a wait in the chinese for my curry, but it was worth it, and now i sit here typing. My plans tonight are to head up to the boyfriends house for a bit of a drink with him and his friends, which is always great fun.

I Really Have Changed So Much

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 22:15:14 GMT

I have read through my previous entries that i have made, and i realise, i used to be such a childish person. Reading through my entries people would probably think all that i care about are boys, which would make me a shallow being, which i most certainly am not. i feel that in these past few months, i have grown up in certain ways, in that boys are not everything and i have realised some other things, about me and other people. i realise that i am too old to be messing in school, i should be doing work when i get it, not to make the teachers happy, but to improve myself. i have alot of self improving to do, improve my schoolwork, improve my self esteem, i have went through a whole image change, before i conformed to an image, teh whole skater girly type thing, and bought clothes because they were skaterish, but now i buy clothes because i like them, and i dont care what people think of me, call me a milly or what, i do not care. many of my "friends" were bad for me, and i have found the best friends ever, they have been there all along. with all the recent events that have been happening, i feel that i am very lucky, i am healthy, have a great family, great friends, an ok job, a great home, i am alive, and have lived a relatively ok life. i am going to spend this year working on myself, whem it comes to people i tend to try too hard to impress sometimes, and i guess i shouldnt, because the people i am myself around seem to like me more. people know that i am nice tho, maybe at times it could be considered that i am a pushover, if someone were to say jump i would say how high, it is just my nature. i want to change that not so much but a tiny bit, so that i can stand up for myself to people, someone once said about me "it worries me that fionnuala has the confidence to ask a boy out to his face, but she can't stand up for herself", thats because they are very different, if i ask a boy out and he says no, then it can be forgotten about and we can carryh on being friends, but if i stand up for myself i am afraid of saying something wrong. i look at life differently now, it shouldn't be wasted on lying about doing nothing, but something must be made of it, which is why i am vowing to make something of my life. i will work as hard as i can to get myself somewhere, but that doesnt mean it will take up all my time, i will take time to improve the guitar, spend time with the friends and the boyfriend. i hope that i can stick to this, no, i PROMISE i WILL stick to this, and any time i see myself slipping, i will just look at this journal entry.

the teabag incident

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 13:15:35 GMT

well, interesting sleep last night, my eye was playing me up so i had to sleep with a teabag on my face last nite. i was teabagged... i wont get to see dear joseph today aww :(. funny thing tho, we had a fight yday in virgin and i kinda walked away n so we were sorta walkin about virgin on our owns n stuff, n i was lookin at music dvds, n so was he, but i kinda walked past him to look at the other ones, n i picked up this blondie 1, n he came up behind me andf i burst out laughin cus it said "hello joe" on the back, n tahts wat i say to him lol. awwe. work was sweet last night it was £10 an hour yeo. still in the process of ridding myself of the bad influenced ones, who take my money and make me feel bad. reason id been depressed for the last year, part from the grandmother was THEM. because they did not care, they cracked up at me for being down, they took my money, one of them threatened to smash a breezeblock in my face. good friends ey? now i realised that the best friends i could have were there in the first place and i was so hung up in the other "friends" i did not notice, but now i have, and i am happier. i actually am a enuinely happier person now that i have distanced myself from them, i can do what i want, listen to what i want, wear what i want(they judged me for liking hip hop how gay)
anyways, im feeling really good as well because i have been accepted by joes friends, which is great because they are so nice and some of the most dead on people i have ever met. aww joseph.

long time

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 22:43:49 GMT

well, wow its been a long time since i last wrote in this. well what can i say this past year has been weird lol. change of friends, got the new boyfriend who i really like, school, is bad lol. id like to think this last year has changed me as a person, because it has, i no longer take shit from people, ive learnt to stand my ground and stand up fo myself when it comes to people trying to walk all over me, i dont want to be a doormat anymore. well i started going out with joe on christmas eve, aww. hes reallly nice, he bought me monkey 2day and the night of the living dead dvd wowow. well i got kept on in big w, its pretty funkeh like, get along with the people that work there on my nights and its not so bad. i went to the GAA on new years eve with aisling and setanta and joe, it was great fun, best new years eve ever. at the min tho i have an injured knee, no idea how i did it, its just there lol. big pain. for anyone that knows me should know i no longer wear baggy clothes, and i dont see why some people have judged me for it, cus im still the same person, just because i dont wear baggys does that make me a milly all of a sudden? ugh. (i am actually in a really good mood).

at teh min i duno wat i feel

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 21:06:57 GMT

i really dont know what i feel or wha i want right now, in a way im happy but im also not. i want a relationship but i dont. n i got 2 boys fuckin with my head, 1 doesnt even kno hes doin it. those bein marc n david. marc doesnt know i still like him so he can hardly know that hes fuckin with my head, but david knows i like him n hes givin me taht whole i need time routine, i dont know whethe to buy it or that hes givin me the brush off. i have sunday night and monday morning to do 3 english essays, 2 french sections for my oral and all teh politics we were given, what i could do is stay up all night sunday doin it n then sleep all day monday before goin into work.
im meetin up with ryan tomorrow, i miss him hes 1 of my closest n dearest, love him.
at the minute i just generally feel like a mess, i dont even really want to go out, look im updating my livejournal at 10 on a friday night when i should be out havin a laugh with my mates, but i couldnt be bothered. if i stay in 2moro night il make a start to the work ive been given, i have to get caught up with my english for mrs wolstencroft cus english is one of the subjects i want to do well in. i cant throw my life away
i have no plans for halloween or anything, il probably end up helping my mum bake or somethin, if not drag people bowling or sumthin. so i guess im not usin my sunday night to do my homework lol. i can get up really early on sunday and get alot of it done before i go to work and then get the rest done on monday before work.
i dont know what to do
somebody help me

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 15:10:07 GMT

well yesterday was my first day of my new job. and it actually went pretty well :). didnt make any mistakes and my till trainer was some woman with class eyes, she has like a big random yellow part in her eye, its thuper cool. i have work again at 6 2nite, but i dont really mind i like it better than the sports company, everybodys really nice and stuffs. i got my snazzy big w tshirt n my name badge hehe. i dont really have much to talk about really cept that. pretty tired, have to get my energy levels up for work so imma go eat soem chicken goujons n potato wedges mmm yummeh. more later
ciao